I'm college-searching with one of my 17-year-old sons, EJ, and it's been an anxious time for me. EJ has been particularly upset/angry with me for months, still pissed that I got engaged, married and moved him into a new home with a new family. I get it; it's tough when you're a strong-minded, change-averse young person and change happens without your ok.
Put the need to start thinking about college on top of that and you have mom-directed anger in buckets. I've been really concerned that EJ would continue stiff-arming me throughout this trip, upending me efforts to get close and repair the damage in our relationship.
So this morning, as he lay sleeping in our HoJos motel room (conveniently located across the street from Dunkin' Donuts and next to a Perkins), I meditated. I used to turn to meditation quite often, but as life smoothed out, my need for it fell away.
It was difficult to stay focused, but I finally got "there" and it really did help soothe my mind.
I have a feeling I'll be doing a lot of meditation for the next few days!
Stay happy.
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